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presently, i feel the frnd whom i was talking daily is missing, d sister i can call anytime is disappearing, when i try to call n their call r busy, i found guilty esp when they wid each-other. i find c may say bahiya u dont give space or he will say u didnt give us time to understand each-other. i know they r not wrong n cannt b also. bcz two loving heart r so pious that they cannt b wrong. i know fault is wid me, i know my unnecessary interuption in their life, myneedless possession, my futile fear is creating problem 4 not only me but 4 them also. but if her bhaiya has aprob, or his frnd is having it should it go like dis only. but 1 thing i will complain thae they dont know or dont understand d feeling of an elder brother i was also not knowing b4 that. its like bing highly protective, possessive, caring 4 her sis, i dont find anything wrong in that. turn d table n any1 will feel d same, but i m really sorry from my heart dt i disturbed dem, i m d culprit, its their greatness that they accept me despite this. esp kshitij sir who is really great, his behave 4 me n chhoti is exceptional n commendable. even i cannt do that. i heartly his maturity & understanding say sorry to him n my dearest chhoti 4 my all unintentional mistakes. i surrender n bow down to them, now its up to them dt how much they 4give me. love u n will b loving u both, but dont expect d same as i m also human bing & i m hurt also. it will take time to regain my trust n to adjust, to eliminate my fear n most importantly to leave my possession or better 2 say my HAQ. love u dear love u both. sorry again.........................