truth of life.

c tells me c is closest to me but c doesnt know what i m feeling these days? my life is going where? family prolems when i think more n more my pain starts. earlier i think i thought i got some1 with whom i can every feelings, with whom i can b happy, i was ready to share her all grief, but i was wrong. it turned another way. i was alone earlier, m alone now & hope wil alone. pain is not i was, m or will like that rather when some1 come in ur life make u hopeful & then changes then it bcomes difficult to adjust. exactly its my real frnd who nvr goes frm my life till i rejects him den again come back without any call when i need it most. i love u my loneliness.

things r not in order

4 everything c wants only her rights. c tells with whom v love v should do everything 4 him/her. i agree. but why i only? why not others? sometime it suffocates. it pains. my 1 mistake is taken as being big brother i did a blunder, but others mistakes r either protected or ignored, or should be 4given even if it hurts n the man infront is not realising it. i dont know my fate or fate of ..................

its confusing

till date c has the most important part of my life. but now adays v fight more than v love each other. issue is same Kshitij. i cannt blame c is at fault but its happening. may b i m at fault. but really i cry from inside. small issues creat the problems. loke when he comes in front her behaviour changes i felt it, hes attention shifts, i feel like unwanted guest. as happened todat, it is Rakhi. i told her wake up since last 1hour c didnt trun up, once he came c turned up. its nothing bad, but it shows my 1 hour efforts have no value. when v finished food c wanted to spend her time wid him, i knew i came out. c formally asked where u r going but didnt stop 4 whom c as c said came to delhi. when i was there c was sleeping contrary to her general routine of holiday, c even after food happy to talk. now what i should feel?