its confusing

till date c has the most important part of my life. but now adays v fight more than v love each other. issue is same Kshitij. i cannt blame c is at fault but its happening. may b i m at fault. but really i cry from inside. small issues creat the problems. loke when he comes in front her behaviour changes i felt it, hes attention shifts, i feel like unwanted guest. as happened todat, it is Rakhi. i told her wake up since last 1hour c didnt trun up, once he came c turned up. its nothing bad, but it shows my 1 hour efforts have no value. when v finished food c wanted to spend her time wid him, i knew i came out. c formally asked where u r going but didnt stop 4 whom c as c said came to delhi. when i was there c was sleeping contrary to her general routine of holiday, c even after food happy to talk. now what i should feel?